Vicious circle

We are all slaves and failures of our own mental blocks. We assume too much and too often. We live with our preconceived notions with an expectation to find, to achieve something new. We pretend more than we believe. We conclude more than we see. Following a theoretical set of instructions , an already followed path is rejoiced as being smart. And that's how we live until we die.

Putting up with being myself crap!

As chuck says, I am not special, I am not crap or shit either. I am just what I am. People who love me want me to be the way they think is going to be the best for me, I owe them for that. Others want me to be the way they want me to be. I say, just accept me the way I am, if you could. That's how I live best, I accept myself. I am not sure whether apologizing for being disappointing would be the right thing and I seriously wish I could do that.
It might be an ideal world situation if I assume you to accept me the way I am for I accept you the way you are. Because I do not believe anymore in what you give is what you get and since it has been a long time that I have been singing this song with no audience :) , I put it all in the shit bag. Let me be myself for I am harmless. And if I be a botheration while I am on my way of being myself, feel free to change the lane, thy would follow. The feeling is not for sure of someone who is stuck, I am more at peace, at a place where I probably don't know who I am but I humbly accept the way I am.

Aaj fir ek samjhaute ki maut mara hun main

"aaj fir ek samjhaute ki maut mara hun main, kabhi takdeer se to kabhi khud se dara hun main,
milunga khud se kabhi na kabhi, bas isi ummeed par har dag chala hun main,
baar baar khudi ki chita ko aag deta chala hun main,
aaj fir ek samjhaute ki maut mara hun main"-Feb 19th

Chalna akela hai

Jheena hai daman har aas ka ab , dhundhla har aaine ka chehra hai,
hata nazar har intezaar ki dagar se, bhar le dum, ki chalna akela hai,
vyarth hai har din us saath ki umeed ka, jis saath ke har lamhe pe shart ka pehra hai,
kar band bhatakna har roz ik nayi mrig trshina ke peeche, jaag zara, ki chalna akela hai.

The curious case of Benjamin Button

Liked the movie mm by mm ! (taken from http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0421715/quotes)

- "For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

-"Your life is defined by its opportunities... even the ones you miss. "

-"You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go. "

Thought-Board !

"Tainted dreams, blotted aspirations,
a confused mind, and some misguided speculations" - Just another day of an attempt to define things.

"I should better learn to concentrate on the thin line between illusions of positivity and shadows of negativity, called reality" - On a blue day, one of the things that I told myself when I was trying to push myself out of that region of vulnerability.


"Though I don't know what I want, but I do know what I don't want"- The closest I could figure out on the lines of What do I want!

"First you sell your degree then your skills and one day you sell your individuality to be happily known as someone working for somebody" - Though sounds freaky to me at times but a thought that occurred when subconsciously tried to relate fight club to the life around.

"The problem with time is that it never comes back.."- Realized it at one of the discussions (ego-bouts) at office!

"It is okay if no one calls you intelligent, but do not let anyone call you stupid" -From one of lectures (KBS) by Prof. HNM.

The Impossible - Joe Nicholas

My dad chased monsters from the dark
He checked underneath my bed
He could lift me with one arm
Way up over top his head
He could loosen rusty bolts
With a quick turn of his wrench
He pulled splinters from his hand
Never even flinched
In thirteen years I'd never seen him cry
But the day that grandpa died,I realized

Unsinkable ships, sink
Unbreakable walls, break
Sometimes the things you think would never happen
Happens just like that
Unbendable steel, bends
If the fury of the wind is unstoppable
I've learned to never underestimate
The impossible

And then there was my junior year
Billy had a brand new car
It was late,the road was wet
I guess the curves was just too sharp
I walked away without a scratch
They brought the helicopter in
And Billy couldn't feel his legs
Said he'd never walk again
But Billy said he would and his mom and daddy prayed
And the day we graduated,he stood up to say:

Unsinkable ships, sink
Unbreakable walls, break
Sometimes the things you think would never happen
Happens just like that
Unbendable steel, bends
If the fury of the wind is unstoppable
I've learned to never underestimate
The impossible

So don't tell me that it's over
Don't give up on you and me
'Cos there's no such thing as hopeless
If you believe:

Unsinkable ships, sink
Unbreakable walls, break
Sometimes the things you think would never happen
Happens just like that
Unbendable steel, bends
If the fury of the wind is unstoppable
I've learned to never underestimate
The impossible