Thought-Board !

"Tainted dreams, blotted aspirations,
a confused mind, and some misguided speculations" - Just another day of an attempt to define things.

"I should better learn to concentrate on the thin line between illusions of positivity and shadows of negativity, called reality" - On a blue day, one of the things that I told myself when I was trying to push myself out of that region of vulnerability.


"Though I don't know what I want, but I do know what I don't want"- The closest I could figure out on the lines of What do I want!

"First you sell your degree then your skills and one day you sell your individuality to be happily known as someone working for somebody" - Though sounds freaky to me at times but a thought that occurred when subconsciously tried to relate fight club to the life around.

"The problem with time is that it never comes back.."- Realized it at one of the discussions (ego-bouts) at office!

"It is okay if no one calls you intelligent, but do not let anyone call you stupid" -From one of lectures (KBS) by Prof. HNM.

The Impossible - Joe Nicholas

My dad chased monsters from the dark
He checked underneath my bed
He could lift me with one arm
Way up over top his head
He could loosen rusty bolts
With a quick turn of his wrench
He pulled splinters from his hand
Never even flinched
In thirteen years I'd never seen him cry
But the day that grandpa died,I realized

Unsinkable ships, sink
Unbreakable walls, break
Sometimes the things you think would never happen
Happens just like that
Unbendable steel, bends
If the fury of the wind is unstoppable
I've learned to never underestimate
The impossible

And then there was my junior year
Billy had a brand new car
It was late,the road was wet
I guess the curves was just too sharp
I walked away without a scratch
They brought the helicopter in
And Billy couldn't feel his legs
Said he'd never walk again
But Billy said he would and his mom and daddy prayed
And the day we graduated,he stood up to say:

Unsinkable ships, sink
Unbreakable walls, break
Sometimes the things you think would never happen
Happens just like that
Unbendable steel, bends
If the fury of the wind is unstoppable
I've learned to never underestimate
The impossible

So don't tell me that it's over
Don't give up on you and me
'Cos there's no such thing as hopeless
If you believe:

Unsinkable ships, sink
Unbreakable walls, break
Sometimes the things you think would never happen
Happens just like that
Unbendable steel, bends
If the fury of the wind is unstoppable
I've learned to never underestimate
The impossible

Another last chance!

That was another last chance, another being-yourself crime,
when I gave things another try, again I brought myself to the rhyme,
things did not work, situation enjoyed the smirk,
hard to put words together, same old hat just one more feather,
amusing how things just never came back, only I did the whole flack,
another abrupt ending , but no regrets and no mending!

Degradation (and not so graceful !)

The questions stayed and the answers vanished. An year back around the same time
I knew(or at least I thought so) the answers to, Where(I think) I want to go, what(I think) I want to do
or at least the direction looked known to similar and familiar questions.
When I see the mirror there is a very confused entity, who with time while getting familiar to the ground rules of
"things" around(some good, some mean and some gross) got distracted.
Isn't it that life should go from the unknown to the known, to the unanswered to the figured out? If it is, degradation is the word.

Attitude Overrated!

(more of an observation rather than a conclusion)
I have never heard this word as much as I did over last one and a half years. People know it, people talk (about) it and people show it. I believe to the core that it does matter but I feel at times it gets overrated. Its a word I have seen mostly being used for individual conveniences and advantages. People just do something abrupt, behave in a screwed(slang!!) up manner and then just put the label - attitude. One classic example that I had observed and I am sure many of many would have observed is at the work-place. People are expected to work without so called "materialistic" aspirations keeping the relationship so one sided and oh yes they put that too under the attitude bar. If I had been data-centric I would have stated 60 of every 100 display messages on GTalk(bow-down) directly, indirectly lead to the holy grail 'attitude'. I personally feel at times it is just so overrated or may be its just that I have taken things a little too seriously.

Maa mujhe wahan le chalo!

Jahan na ho khamoshi ka shor,
jahan na hun main apna chor,
maa mujhe wahan le chalo!

jahan na ho aaine ka dar,
na katre jaate hon khudi ke par,
maa mujhe wahan le chalo!